Each year I make resolutions and by February, I’m wandering what they even are. One of my resolutions every year for the last 10 years has been to lose weight and clearly that hasn’t happened. I think the only resolution I’ve kept for the last 5 years or so is to never live with regrets. To believe everything happens exactly as it is meant to and move on. This is of course not always easy and is a constant practice. Life can throw us some real curveballs and it sometimes takes me a little time to get my head around things. But ultimately I do and move on convincing myself there’s a bigger plan for me that I’m just not seeing yet.
So roll around 2015 and when I got wind of Susannah Conway’s “Word of 2015” it suited me just right. The idea behind it is to focus on the year ahead and what you’d like to achieve, what you see your perfect day as and how you want to feel. She sends you 5 emails that help you gather your thoughts and narrow down one word for the year ahead. As humans we’re constantly evolving and developing, learning and growing and what I loved about this practice was that she made it very clear that nothing is set in stone and so while I may find my word now, my word could actually change by March. This was reassuring because narrowing down to one word was no easy task.
My word actually came to me before I started the practice…it kept reverberating in my mind but I went through the 5 days to make sure it really was the word I wanted. And it turns out I wanted lots of words!! They included Focus, Conscious, Love, Abundant, Independence, Determination, Shakti, Kindness, Nourish, Healing, Freedom, Clarity and Commitment. In the end I narrowed it down to Conscious, Abundant, Determination, Shakti and Freedom. On day 3, she asked us to write down what each of the 5 words meant to us and what it really meant. I began to notice a pattern. All my words linked to me and finding my inner strength, my drive and also being more present.
Can you guess what my word is yet??
In the end I went with CONSCIOUS. When I reflected back on 2014 and looked forward to 2015, one of the things that kept popping into my mind was my inability to focus. While I am able to do many things, all in the name of multitasking of course, I realised that I’d rather do one thing well than many things half heartedly. I also realised that I spend a lot of time on my phone and catch myself saying to S “Just one minute” when he needs my attention. I most certainly do not want to be that mom with her head down all the time. No one’s Facebook status is more important that the time I spend with S. I’ve decided to remove the Facebook app from my phone and make my time with S a FB free zone. Let’s be honest, we’re addicts and while I know this won’t always be easy, it needs to be done.
The other thing I realised was that I often sit down to write a blog post or read a blog post and half way through I’ll get up to go get something to eat or get a glass of water. Totally unnecessary! So my word CONSCIOUS is really a reminder for me to FOCUS, be more AWARE, be PRESENT and to really NOTICE all around me.
Here’s to living a more conscious 2015!! 🙂 Do you have a word for 2015 or any new resolutions?